Sadness Is Beautiful......Poetry
More Poetry With Its Roots In Despair
Poems that were written while i was in the depths of a severe depression .....this was following the death of my beloved stepmother Janie, and i was in a deep dark hole that i could not see my way out of.
Enough
is anything , anywhere ever enough
to stop these feelings of wanting to cut
wanting to burn or yank out my hair
talking to people that arent really there
is it ever enough to want to be free
from all the emotions raging in me
or will i always have these feelings inside
i hate the way i have to hide
is it ever enough to try to be good
and all of the time be whatever i should
or will i ever get the chance to apply
these new things
they taught me to feel inside
is it ever enough to try as hard as can be
or will i always fight with the horrible me
will this race ever end and will i ever win
or will it be the horror all over again
Fingers Crossed
when i tell you im doing better
i have my fingers crossed
when i say i think ill be okay
i have my fingers crossed
when i say im sorry for my anger
i have my fingers crossed
when i say ill always love you
i have my fingers crossed
when i say my day was okay
i have my fingers crossed
dont listen to anything i say
i have my fingers crossed
im not listening to you today
you have your fingers crossed
Hatred
seething rages
torn up pages
ire and angst
love and hate
a very fine line
between the two
i would stay but i
have better things to do
like getting happy
and being glad
and not feeling hurt
or blue or sad
too much time together
not enough apart
makes an ever widening breach
in the distace between hearts
love and hate
in and out
being with you
makes me want to shout
Whatever
whatever it takes
no matter that my heart breaks
i will be here
whatever i do
no matter how blue
i will be here
whatever i say
no matter where my thoughts lay
i will be here
whatever the pain
or the fears in my brain
i will be here
whatever i choose
no matter what i might lose
i will be here
whatever my fears
ignoring my tears
i will be here
through whatever..............
